The Dreams of my Reality

Do you ever day dream of things that in your heart of heart seems improbable? Or that may never really come into fruition? Or just hope beyond hope that the desires of your heart are heard by the good Lord and maybe, just maybe, if you keep on keeping on, they’ll come into being. Well, I am beyond happy to announce that we have fought the good fight and kept the faith and so many of the things that were once a “wow, wouldn’t that be nice?” are now a reality!

Last time I wrote we had to say so long for now to our sweet boy Milo, months have passed and so much has happened but not a day goes by that I don’t think of him, or think I hear him.

Just the other night I had the most vivid dream of seeing him laying on his bed and I went over and actually said to myself in my dream, “this is real, this is real, I feel his soft fur and smell his Frito feet. I made myself be so present in the moment, I might’ve even pinched myself in the dream! When I woke my heart felt at peace and my spirit seemed so much more lifted. I just loved to see those who’ve passed on in my dreams, it’s like little glimpses of their love for us from the other side.

The remodeling and re-doing of so much:

so many projects and much to share I plan to make this a few posts, so we’ll make this few big rooms in the house and what we’ve done and go from there.

RESCUED RELICS

My re-sale hobby has become more of a passion and I believe I’ve gotten my sweetie convinced to join me in the treasure hunting of all things discarded. Yippee, us two out treasure hunting, I couldn’t dream of anything better than that. If you’d like to see what I have for sale click here to go to my eBay store RESCUED RELICS 2020 Also, I just listed a whole bunch of cup cozies that I crochet and added some vintage bling cuz that’s my thing. Part of the joy of finding things or making things is knowing that soon they’ll be with someone who appreciates and values the work and creation that went into making them no matter how new or old the item is.

Here is my office before I got settled in:

Mitch put down a new floor for the office and it’s awesome

this flooring is called brooks meadow oak from home depot
waiting to be filled with treasures!
now looking at the picture I see where I can put more things! haha

Remodeling, taking something old and bring it back to life either with a good ol’ cleaning or a fresh coat of paint is always a wonderful feeling.

The original fireplace, I tried to clean it but the soot wasn’t coming off, in the end I’m glad it worked out the way it did because we’re beyond pleased with the end result
Id show you the whole area but then you’d see I have a tub of stuff sitting there that I have to look up and list.

Now that we’ve moved into the big house, also known as the 1906 Victorian Farm house we haven’t have a day or moment to ask what there is to do because every time we turn around we see something else we want to accomplish. For us that’s just the way we like it, always improving, making better or making it more just right! The following pics are of the dinning room. We chose these colors ten years ago, but we were ready for a change.

we are trying to see what color sample we want go with
in the end we decided for Behr Silverstone grey in an eggshell sheen and Behr ultra pure white for the trim
the floor is a laminate floating floor
Lifeproof driftwood beach from the Home Depot
This is the Dining room as it is today, with a dry erase easel thanks to COVID19 being a 5th grade teacher is now a part of my repertoire. I currently home school my Grand-niece Taylor and we love learning together
The dining room from another angle

The kitchen had a very dark flooring that showed every scratch possible and also right after Mitch put it down ten years ago I wanted to make sure I cleaned it right and ruined it! It never had the shine that it did when it was new and just really bummed me out!

We decided to run the same flooring all the way from the dining room into the kitchen.

Closet space was ample but hard to manage until we saw something on Pinterest. People of the world inspiring and teaching others, I do love that about the internet.

DIY closet Rods for Attic

Angled or Attic closet space is tricky and Mitch knew just the trick

There is plenty more for me to share, but it’s getting to be dinner time and those ramen noodles don’t cook themself! haha

Oh one last thing, I don’t know if you remember my fascination with the Leopard Slugs, well if you don’t, I am. I just think all of nature is cool and they are no exception. Anyway, this summer I was excited to actually witness the mating of two Leopard Slugs and I got it all on video, from beginning to end! The video is long and slow, slow as slugs are, but if you’d like to see the video click here to go to our You Tube channel to watch Leopard Slug Lovin.

I’m going to sign off now and plan to write more often, I’ve missed writing to you all and now that so many projects have been completed I’ve got plenty to share. Until next time, please stay safe, healthy and remember you matter and so does your vote!

The Weight of Words

What’s in a word? Well letters, of course. But also, they can push you down or lift you up. I’ve never been very active on other platforms, but that changed about 6 months ago and I’ll tell you what, if you want to be taken down a few notches, tiktok is the place to thicken your skin. Everyone has an opinion and it can be harsh. I found myself slowly getting wrapped up in that other world. I instantly witnessed, and on a small scale experience the massive love and hate of strangers. I viewed it as practice and working up my nerve to continue posting YouTube.

It worked, initially that gut punching sting of being called stupid or being told to shut up hit like a ton of bricks, but after time progressed I was able to not take it so personally and realize opinions are something that everyone has an abundance of! No point in contorting myself into an idea of how I should be when making videos, I’m not going to be everyone’s cup of tea, and the only thing I can truly be is me. Not taking it personally was the lesson I needed.

Being ok with putting myself out on YouTube is crossing a line that I think I’ve actually come to terms with. It’s so strange to see myself talk, to see my face.. I’ve never really been aware of my physical self. I’ve always envisioned myself more as an energy, a floating bouncing energy ball ( or a flower). Seriously, occasionally I see a woman look at me in a department store or making eye contact from a car and she’ll look somewhat familiar, but I’m not sure how I know her. I’ll wonder to myself why is she staring at me? why does she seem so confused AND is staring at me? Then a moment later I realize that woman is me!

So after a six month break, I’ll be back posting on YouTube and hope you’ll consider watching me and my sweetie. We’re carving our own path through the reselling world.

https://youtube.com/channel/UC5cxMjvIFfIZe9NXtvpmVhQ

I plan to post more stories and such here as well from now on. Thanks for sticking with me and I hope this year is your best year yet!

Bad News Blues

Through my life, when I’m about to get bad news, like really bad, life and death bad news, I find myself calm. All other times, when it turns out to be nothing, I’m a nervous wreck before knowing the truth. I believe the good Lord knows when it’s real, I need Him to help me deal. Almost as if I can feel Him holding me tight with His love, keeping my soul at peace. Today I’m calm as I sit here in the vet clinic waiting for the doctor. I think to myself, “why are you so calm? Oh no, I’m not panicking! Crap, it must be something serious if you’re this calm. Maybe if I start to worry and let my mind begin racing like usual it’ll turn out to be nothing.” So silly to think I can control an outcome based on how I’m feeling. But then again who doesn’t think crazy thoughts when facing reality..

It’s Milo, he has white gums, lethargic, occasional thin and dark poo…and just not himself. We’d noticed something was off a couple weeks ago when he started licking this brick in the house, so I looked it up and read that it could be a diet deficiency or anemia, which results from serious illnesses. Today, when I was checking his teeth and saw how pale his gums were, we went straight to the vet.

The doctor just came in with the lab results, I can see it in her eyes as she comes to sit next to me. She tells me about the test results, that his red blood cells are low (anemia) and his liver numbers are off too… she’s pretty sure it’s cancer, more than likely colon cancer. After talking with the family we all agree, as long as he isn’t in pain, we’ll wait for him to tell us when he’s ready. So for now we will hold him long and lots, and give him extra treats and yummy sweets (that are ok for dogs of course).

We’ve had 11 love filled years with him, so many memories and now we’ll do our best to ensure the rest of his time is about quality of life and comfort. Milo’s birthday is March 4th, I’m going to look into making him some pupcakes!

To have love in our lives is to know there will be loss. I am grateful for all the love, will cherish it and and know the loss isn’t forever.